Monday, April 22, 2013

Are you a Male Chauvinist Pig?

Are you a man that doesn't listen to or respect a woman? I hope my sons listen to and respect all people, for being people. So far I think I have done a good job of showing them that this is the way life should be. I hope I have taught them to help people, love, people, and listen to other people.

Life will bring you across all walks of life, if you let it. Many chose to not leave their upbringing and miss out on loving others for who they are, and their life experiences. Lately I keep having to deal with men that don't respect their wives, much less me or my children.

I hope I can teach my children to not be a doormat. Often I feel as if I am still wiping a footprint off my face, and I need to be better about standing up for my feelings and opinions.  I have a right to them. (note I am not talking about my husband.)

Public School

I put my girls in Public school yesterday. I have lost my mind!! I thought they were really behind....NOT. I thought they would struggle....NOT!! I wondered how they would do. They are doing awesome. Proof in point that homeschooling is benificial for my children. So why are they continuing in the public school next week. Their Dad doesn't want them to switch back again. He feels they have changed enough. We'll see.

A girl is "gay" in my 6th graders gym class. She says this along with the other girls. "gay means lesbian right??" My daughter asks....well okey dokey.... Sex education, discussion about the week. Curse words.....The big F and P word.....angry P word....so they hear it all the time now..... I think it was a nice two days of learning and it is time to homeschool them.

Meanderings

Life is always interesting, the irony of things.

Bounce

Trampoline, I always thought well, they are dangerous but I always wanted one, so I got one. I love watching the kids on this.

Reflection

GROW OLD ALONG WITH ME, THE BEST IS YET TO BE. Recently my husband and I ran away from home for a day. As we had dinner we walked through memories of our lives. I thought healthy life, there isn't much we don't share as time goes on except his travels as he continues on his career path.


Letting Go

Early this AM, I said bye to my oldest. My husband took her to the airport, weighed her suitcases and said fairwell to our baby. She is headed to Africa as I write this. Madagascar, to be exact. 19 years ago I was counting the weeks and hoping this second child I was carrying would live. This child is yours God. I gave her to you when I knew she was there, and trusted you had the best for me in store, and you did.

19 years ago, you were only 8 weeks old in utero, and we were living in Ft. Riley, Kansas. Max and Lady, were puppies, destroying my house. It seemed like right and left something was breaking in that quad house. The air conditioner flooding the house, the bathroom upstairs, the temperature always needing the windows open upstairs and freezing down stairs. It was an interesting place to live, you were one of the last children to live there. Destroyed after we moved out. Woofard Drive.....

Your first choice in life after high school was to go see Madagascar. So glad you got your choice, and your life takes a clearer direction to being a nurse. ( : or whatever you desire. You'll always be my daughter, and I am happy to call you His.

50 Years 50 Stars

On Saturday we'll be celebrating my parents 50th year of marriage. I am so thankful that on March 15th, I began to prepare for this moment, even before that I had an idea of what I would do. Thanks to facebook, I remembered a few things from my childhood and gathered together paints to put a picture together. It isn't finished but it's completed enough to make a story. Their real anniversary isn't until July 4th, so I have time.

I went back to my parents to gather photos, to put together a slide show. We'll be doing a photo finish of all the things we need to complete before leaving for this party. It was a strange moment in which memories apear. Things you haven't thought about for decades suddenly come back to you, or not. Preparing and looking at the past and the present is amazing.

People, places, and things are all built up into this moment of time and suddenly you realize the impact of a faithful marriage together. All the God moments, the people who play a part into the lives of two people, and the lives they touch. It's inspirational to those of us who are married to continue and a bit daunting to realize some of us won't ever make it this far in life for one reason or another. It's a huge accomplishment. Suddenly all the degrees, and studying and accomplishments in life don't seem to have as much meaning as being faithful and loving one person for this long. Suddenly till death do us part has a stronger meaning and something to look at.

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Choices by My Second Child, Daughter #2

I teared up reading this. http://imightneedanap.com/2013/04/19/prom-night/ I can only remember the year my sister skipped her Junior year od High School and fast forward into her senior year. It all worked out for her, for me I took a step back in life and watched my brother's Junior year of High School happen, then we would part ways for at least 9 months out of the year. I also would be able to have another year with my oldest brother attending the same college together. 

I'm thankful that my daughter has another year to grow up and move on in life, her senior year holds so much indefinite things and things I wanted her to already of done and then I think she could easily be a sophomore this year if I had my way when she was younger, she wanted to go forward, and now she seems to be turning her head back looking at a younger brother that she is already missing in some ways. 

My daughter, I watch in amazement as she can memorize pages and pages of lines for a play, Bible Quizzing, spelling words that bore her so she doesn't memorize them, nor see the beauty in being able to write with words that add color and description to the moment. Once upon a time she wrote creative stories, when she didn't have others to look at. Perhaps putting her in an accredited school caused her to lose some things but I hope she looks back and smiles at her high school years. 

My kids life is much like mine was when I was a child, but different as we no longer have orders telling us to move. My husband and I have made choices that have caused their lives to be a certain way, we have also permitted them to make choices as to what they want for their childhood/young adulthood. We have financed school choices, learning opportunities. Encouraged church life, or discouraged it in my case. 

For the most part my Junior in Highschool has soared in what she wants in life, and she will continue. I hope she doesn't miss things along the way as she pursues her wants, and I say slow down, life happens so quickly. Step back, don't grow up so quickly, or think you have. There are so many choices to still be made, make the one you want, but make sure your heart is in the right place. Make sure you've listened to me, yeah I know that seems like a stupid idea to you. Look back on your Junior year as the year I didn't listen to my Mother, but then I did what she said anyway. My strong willed daughter, whew we have and will continue to have these days. Slow down for a moment. 

The page has turned once again and I smile as you regain a relationship with that younger brother, the one you had seemed to forgotten but realize your stepping forward but stepping back. It's not easy being the kid in the middle, the oldest or the youngest but somehow this year my three teens are growing wings and soaring and realizing that having siblings is a gift to cherish. Not like my husband and I planned this we were just following orders in the beginning and somehow along the way our freedom was handed to us to do what we wanted in life. Who knew it would be 5 children each so different with challenges, joys, and abilities. I'm exhausted as the Mom trying to keep up with them. No education could prepare me for this, but it helped. 

Now what to do next year?? Choices coming up. 

Friday, April 19, 2013

My Life's Journey

Wow, April 2013 could you be any busier?? I am sure you could. I'm taking a time out to stop and smell the roses. Okay the turtles, time to clean their cage, but I have a second in between cleaning their living space and going to an eye appointment.

I have so enjoyed this month. Went to Tennessee with Sweet Georgia Sounds. Turned out it is part of a group of 40,000 people who are part of Sweet Adelines. Not sure how this all works but know it's been fun.

Second weekend I went to North Carolina to Ridgecrest. Enjoying the new church I am part of but not a member (I am part of the church and this is what matters.) Joining churches is a strange thing and I am learning about what all that is about. For now the Alliance church is the one I am enjoying the most and spend my time, energy, and some money....spreading it around a bit because my life is not about one place. Still the nomad traveling and figuring out but know this world is not my home.

3rd weekend coming up and so happy for once to be in my own little piece of land called home. Pounding another stake in the tent area soon. 5 years and counting!!!