I teared up reading this. http://imightneedanap.com/2013/04/19/prom-night/ I can only remember the year my sister skipped her Junior year od High School and fast forward into her senior year. It all worked out for her, for me I took a step back in life and watched my brother's Junior year of High School happen, then we would part ways for at least 9 months out of the year. I also would be able to have another year with my oldest brother attending the same college together.
I'm thankful that my daughter has another year to grow up and move on in life, her senior year holds so much indefinite things and things I wanted her to already of done and then I think she could easily be a sophomore this year if I had my way when she was younger, she wanted to go forward, and now she seems to be turning her head back looking at a younger brother that she is already missing in some ways.
My daughter, I watch in amazement as she can memorize pages and pages of lines for a play, Bible Quizzing, spelling words that bore her so she doesn't memorize them, nor see the beauty in being able to write with words that add color and description to the moment. Once upon a time she wrote creative stories, when she didn't have others to look at. Perhaps putting her in an accredited school caused her to lose some things but I hope she looks back and smiles at her high school years.
My kids life is much like mine was when I was a child, but different as we no longer have orders telling us to move. My husband and I have made choices that have caused their lives to be a certain way, we have also permitted them to make choices as to what they want for their childhood/young adulthood. We have financed school choices, learning opportunities. Encouraged church life, or discouraged it in my case.
For the most part my Junior in Highschool has soared in what she wants in life, and she will continue. I hope she doesn't miss things along the way as she pursues her wants, and I say slow down, life happens so quickly. Step back, don't grow up so quickly, or think you have. There are so many choices to still be made, make the one you want, but make sure your heart is in the right place. Make sure you've listened to me, yeah I know that seems like a stupid idea to you. Look back on your Junior year as the year I didn't listen to my Mother, but then I did what she said anyway. My strong willed daughter, whew we have and will continue to have these days. Slow down for a moment.
The page has turned once again and I smile as you regain a relationship with that younger brother, the one you had seemed to forgotten but realize your stepping forward but stepping back. It's not easy being the kid in the middle, the oldest or the youngest but somehow this year my three teens are growing wings and soaring and realizing that having siblings is a gift to cherish. Not like my husband and I planned this we were just following orders in the beginning and somehow along the way our freedom was handed to us to do what we wanted in life. Who knew it would be 5 children each so different with challenges, joys, and abilities. I'm exhausted as the Mom trying to keep up with them. No education could prepare me for this, but it helped.
Now what to do next year?? Choices coming up.
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